There is this energy buzzing around me.
It’s not Lexi.  Although, she is also buzzing around me.
It’s just good stuff.  I feel like I’m on the right path.

I’m not sure where it goes.  But it feels RIGHT.
You know when you decide to take a new way to get to someplace you go all the time…and there are a few minutes where you’re all up in your head thinking “this was a bad idea, I have no idea where I am, this isn’t going where I thought it would” but then you make one right turn and Aha! There is STARBUCKS and the only thing you can do is sing the Eureka song from the Backyardigans!  Oh, wait.  Yeah, that’s just me then.  Okay.  But you know the feeling.  That’s the feeling buzzing in me right now.

On Monday Mondo Beyondo dreaming starts again and I am SO excited.  I think I should write that again because I am SO excited.  I was trying to explain why I was so excited to someone today and while they understood the positive nature of the class they didn’t understand why I would want to do it again…which I get.  I couldn’t come up with a good answer at the time but it’s been on my mind and this is where I’ve marinated to: The first time I did Mondo Beyondo I was beginning to accept myself for the dreamer that I am.  I was hopeful and energized by this community of people that would support you for the moments you doubted the validity and were there to high five you when you allowed yourself to MAKE your dreams real.  This time going into it I have the start of a list and I’ve felt the incredible bliss of accomplishing and experiencing my dreams coming true.  And now I get to dream bigger – I will allow myself to really soak in the warm light of positivity – I’ll believe more and I’ll be inspired.  And that….THAT is the good stuff.

Today we took a walk outside and we wore our fleece jackets.  Mandy jogged in the lightness of a warm(er) day.  Lexi laughed and threw her head back while swinging in the sunshine.  There is something that is in the sunshine that I just can’t seem to get in the bottle of Vitamin D I so religiously take all winter long.  It’s magic.

I’ve been working out really hard lately and it feels so good.  When I’m out of breath and the sweat is just dripping off my face and my legs are about ready to just give out I think: How lucky am I that I get to feel this – that I get to be THIS alive in this moment.  This hurts.  It does.  But my body can do this. The power in that pushes me through to the end of the workout.  I’m getting stronger.  In every way.

The big decisions that I need to make are being put away for the rest of the month of March.  I’m not making any of them this month.  They don’t need to be made yet and there is plenty of time to for that in April and May.  In the past I have not been able to do this – once a decision was put in front of me I had to make it – it wasn’t an option to let something simmer….I couldn’t be patient enough with myself.  And because of that I made some rather impulsive decisions….none of which I regret (except, a couple) and I’m going to give myself a lesson here and I’m going to let the idea of where we should be simmer.

For now there is a new Hallmark movie about to make its premier and this is exactly the kind of Saturday night I desire.  I hope you’re having a really awesome weekend!