Dear Lexi-

Everything changed for me on July 29th when you were born. It started changing before you were born.  But then, that day, it was just different.  I changed.  Before you my success was most important – being a tough, serious, business person was it for me.  I was thinking about the biggest houses, in the best neighborhoods with little concern outside of our immediate needs.  And then it was different.

It’s not fair in some ways that I’ve changed.  I know that.  But I can’t change back.  Because now I’m your Mommy.  And you are the most important.  Making sure that you have the best childhood possible – being the best role model that I can be – putting the work down and reading to you – enjoying dinner with you and laughing and splashing during bath time.  That is most important now.  I still matter.  I do.  And I’m going to make sure that I am a role model that shows you that too.

More then anything Lexi – I want to make you proud.  I want you to walk across the floor at graduation (all of them starting in Pre-K all the way through med school if you want) and I want you to be proud of how I was your mother.  I love you my doodle.  I love you bigger then the sky and I would move mountains for you.  I just want to make you proud.

Mommy