I think I may have mentioned that I’ve been taking an online course called Mondo Beyondo.  It’s about dreaming but not in the sleep sense because, lets be honest, if it required sleep I’d be screwed.  It’s about all the things, places, feelings, moments, tastes, thoughts, glimpses, experiences that you’d ever want to have happen to you.  For some people its abstract, for others it s a list.  I don’t think I need to tell you what group I fall in to.

Dreaming is easy in some ways but in other ways its damn scary.  The recurring nag that I hear in my head is: What if I fail.  Now that I’ve put it out there into the universe, what if I fail?  What if I never get to ____________.  I’ll have failed.  And don’t even get me started about the fear I have of telling other people the items on my list.  Then YOU’D know I failed too.  And THAT is too much for me to handle.

So during this November every single day post I’m going to put myself out there and share one item on my list a day.  The list is way longer then 30 things and I really am glad that I have a place that I feel safe sharing this….even if it is just 30 of them and one day at a time.  Some days I might elaborate, other days I’m just going to put it out there because to elaborate feels like creating a reason why I deserve that to happen or apologizing for how it may make me seem.  And I don’t want to do that.

November 1st: Play a game of horse with Lebron James, Dwayne Wade and Charles Barkley.

I should note that I didn’t play basketball.  I have beat my husband in HORSE on one occasion and given his status in the basketball world I consider that VERY embarrassing for him.  He has often asked for a rematch to which I say: No – because if we did play again there is a chance that I wouldn’t be able to say “the last time we played HORSE I won” and I enjoy saying that very very much.